As a new mama, I hear, “Soak it in, it goes so fast” frequently, from the older crowd. It is hard to avoid this fact, when my daughter is a visual marker of time’s steady forward march.
How can she be this big already? How can she say “mama” and stand up? When I add up what she has learned and how many tiny outfits she has outgrown, my heart hurts more than a little bit… There is joy in growth too. I grew her using my body. God crafted her just for this family. I am watching her, really watching, and tucking these moments away. My heart is full and overflowing.
But when people lovingly remind me of the quickness of life – I have also been thinking about myself. My twenties are winding down. The endless possibilities upon graduating high school and college have been limited by my choices. So, I have been thinking – If not now, when? If not me, then who?
This is why I started blogging again, motivated with a ticket to next year’s Influence Conference. My life is what I am making of my time. If I want an awesome community of women, now is the time to dive in and build/join one. If I want to remember our story, then I need to write it. This is my chance at being a brand-new mama, a supportive wife to her husband, a friend who is loyal and available, a story-teller in the works, and a constant learner.
People are right – Life is short. It does go too fast.
But I am bound and determined to soak it in and live life fully. Cut bangs. Be honest. Tell our story. Encourage my daughter. Grow in marriage. It might hurt to be stretched, but I’m sure the joy is worth it.