Before having Evelyn and Thomas I taught high school biology for 5 years. While my former career isn’t super evident on this blog, I’m definitely a science-minded, logical, problem-solving type girl. In fact, the only way you might have picked up on it is because I place nearly all my favorite blooms into science flasks instead of pretty vases.
I’m also through-and-through a teacher. As a kid, I loved to play school. All my spiritual gifting test results are something like 99% teacher and 1% split between all the other options. I love to explain and break down complicated topics, like photosynthesis or genetics, into something that makes sense.
But if I’m being totally honest with you, dear friend. When I think about my daily life right now, I’m no expert. I don’t have a lot I could teach you about working from home or life with two little ones. We’re making it, and life is pretty good. How? I have no clue. I’m in the midst of it. There’s a LOT of grace involved. I’m learning as I go.
I’ve been making strides in areas I’m excited about. But the biggies – marriage, parenthood, working part time from home, friendships – feel hazy, unsure, and foggy. I will probably never be a “journal” type blogger, writing from the middle of the mess and reporting what is happening in real time. I like to process it out and find the story, the big picture, before I start typing it out. If I waited until the “end” of the story, I probably wouldn’t write for a very long time.
Without any lessons to offer, here’s what I can report from the messy middle ground: Life is really beautiful, fun, quirky, and surprising. Some examples…
- We tried to get our kids to sleep in the nursery together at night, and it flopped miserably. Two bleary-eyed parents did some problem-solving, consulted all our favorite people in the world, tiptoed into the trendy world of essential oils, and then decided to keep our two little people separated for awhile longer.
- Taking two littles to a restaurant is like herding cats while carrying a grenade. You never know what to expect or when a meltdown might occur.
- Fencing our postage stamp yard is possibly the best parenting decision we ever made. The combination of Vitamin D, sidewalk chalk, and working off pent-up toddler energy is a Win-Win-Win.
- The scientist in me wants predictability, repeatability, standardization. I want a limited number of variables in this experiment of raising toddlers. The accountant in my husband wants rational thought and logical decisions. Toddlers refuse to cooperate with any of these demands.
- The babies are impossible to sum up into a post or a paragraph. They blow my mind every day with surprises and intensity and curiosity. As much as I want to write about them thereby bottling them up, I have no words because they seem so bright that they could contain every word in existence.
sushi + babies
They say that love multiplies. When you anticipate adding to your family, you can’t really imagine loving another human being like the ones you’ve already got. But the saying is true. As newlyweds, Zach loved me and I loved him. When Evelyn was born, we loved each other, we loved her, she loved us, we loved watching the other fall in love. Now that Tommy is here, not only do we love him and but we love seeing Evelyn love him well. The love bubble keeps getting bigger. I’m so grateful that it doesn’t make sense, or follow the rules, or fit into a neat box, like the teacher in me would prefer. Some things are better experienced than taught, you know?