After 2+ years working on the core team of The Influence Network, it is time for me to hand off my role to someone else. This has been such a hard decision for my husband and me, and I know many of you are also involved in the network, so I wanted to share my heart about this new season.
First, I have all the love for the Influence Network, which exists as a starting place for women to find community and be equipped right where they are. I’ve been part of the team since the beginning, and I’m blown away at what God has built, with a lot of our sweat along the way. At first my job was simply to coordinate the Influence blog, but now my role also includes a newsletter, social media, an e-magazine, a podcast, and exclusive monthly member content. I love that. Serving the women of the network has been an incredible honor. The most difficult part about this decision was choosing to not be on a team with these phenomenal women. They have prayed for our family, walked with us through hard seasons, encouraged me to no end, spoken truth, and I just love them. (And of course, I’m always on their team and rooting for them. The friendships are still intact. It will just be different not working alongside them towards the same goals and seeing their faces at our Tuesday meetings.)
But in the end, the change became necessary for our family. As my kids have grown (now 3 and 1 1/2) and life as a stay-home mom has become more consuming, the extra energy and time I had spent working on Influence projects has dwindled. We spent several months trying to find solutions, but I felt frantic and constantly interrupted in both roles I was trying to play. I wish I could do it all, but I feel such peace about focusing on this season while my kids are still home all day.
When Evelyn was very young, I floundered without a job, the steady paycheck, and the encouragement of my boss and colleagues. Zach and I both agreed that staying home was the right choice for me while our kids were young, but it didn’t feel as fulfilling as I assumed it would. And so, I was grateful when the opportunity came along to work for Influence during nap times. It was a creative and mental and friendship outlet for me. (Remember how all 6 team members had babies during the first year of Influence?!) But now, as my oldest has recently quit napping, my youngest is verbal and very mobile, my husband works long hours, and without family nearby…there just isn’t much margin left.
I realize in 2-3 years, life will be different. They’ll start school and a whole world of free time might open up, but for right now, trying to keep extra work in the mix was just too much weight for my shoulders to carry. I’m still working through thoughts on work and calling and womanhood and identity. There’s a lot ruminating in my head, and I’ve been paying attention to our generation and the one that came before us. I don’t want to step on toes, when I don’t have many answers at all. But right now, I like the idea of being a little more quiet, paying attention to a smaller sphere of people, and focusing on just one thing for awhile.
It has been such a joy to be part of this group of women and this work. I’ll still be at the conference and involved with Influence, just not in an official capacity. I hope I’ll get to see lots of you there!